Second Soliloquy

A journey into the mindscape...

Philosophy Quiz

Okay, here we go again...


You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.



“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”

“It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”

--Jean-Paul Sartre



“It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.”

--Blaise Pascal



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Existentialism

95%

Utilitarianism

80%

Divine Command

75%

Kantianism

70%

Hedonism

60%

Strong Egoism

55%

Justice (Fairness)

55%

Apathy

35%

Nihilism

30%

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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Going On A Trip...

My dad's going to a convention this Saturday and he's taking the whole family along. We'll be staying at a resort somewhere in Pangasinan up until Monday. I don't know what the name of the place is, but I'll be able to fill you in on stuff when I get back.

Unless, for some obscure reason, I happen to get access to free internet there somehow.

Blog Poster's Warning

Posting quiz results may be dangerous to your layout. If you happened to catch the last post, well, I deleed it, because it ruined the layout, completely. If you didn't, or you just forgot what it was about, that post had quiz results on it. The quiz had something to do with what philosophy you follow (supposely), and I happened to get Existentialism.

Nothing

This is why I can never remember what happened during any of my past summers. Because nothing's happening in the first place!

No new insights. No new adventures (or misadventures even). Nothing. And unless it's going to be with some other '05 people, I am not especially interested in going to whereever. Okay, maybe I am, but that's only because it's a chance to get out of the house. A change of scenery is at least a bit better that being stuck here at home with nothing to do.

So right now, I'm kinda looking forward to going to the Truth outing or reunion or something. Kinda, because I'm usually too bored to remember to look forward to it.

Okay, so I can manage to find something to do sometimes. Right now, I'm halfway through "An Acceptable Time" by Madeleine L'Engle. I really want to read those other books, though *points to previous post*. I know you're reading this, Aida, so can I borrow the ones you have? Thank you.

Book Fund

Starting last week, whenever I drop by a bookstore, I go around looking for books to read, and take note of the ones that seem especially interesting. Right now, I have a list of 15:

...and I don't have money to buy any of them. I am poor and unemployed. Perhaps I can persuade my parents to buy me some of these? Or I could just look for a source of income.

Wah...

Nocturnal

My sleeping patterns are shifting. Before, if I ever managed to stay up until 2 in the morning, I'd already be zombieish. Now I can stay up until 5 and still retain most of my brain function. If I keep this up, I could be up all night.

To compensate, of course, I tend to wake up late as well. Like around lunchtime. Meaning I still get approximately the same hours of sleep. So if I keep this up, I'd be sleeping all day.

Speaking of sleep, I had this really wierd dream last night... nah, it's too embarassing to tell, even if I don't remember the details anyway.

Pre-Enlistment

Well, I got my preenlistment schedule fixed up. I picked the g-10 template, which has 2 slots for CS11, but ended up with just the MTh one. Which means I start classes at 1:00 in the afternoon on Tuesdays and Fridays.

And the full schedule goes:

Monday:
9:30-11:30 CS11 lec
1:00-2:15 Math17
4:00-5:30 Socio10

Tuesday:
1:00-2:15 Math17
4:00-5:30 STS

Wednesday:
7:00-8:30 Eng11

Thursday:
8:30-11:30 CS11 lab
1:00-2:15 Math17
4:00-5:30 Socio10

Friday:
1:00-2:15 Math17
4:00-5:30 STS

Saturday:
7:00-8:30 Eng11
10:00-12:00 RFM

Yup, I preenlisted for a WS class, so I have a reason to go out of the house every day of the week. And I took rifle marksmanship (RFM) for PE, because tap dancing would cause conflict with the WS class. And I figured I'd take archery and yoga sometime later, like next sem. And no, I do not want to start the day with algeb and trigo (the template g-11 has Math17 at 7:00-8:30 MTThF. Or was that 8:30-9? I forget).

Personality Disorder Test: The Second Time Around

Found this on Nadine's blog, so I took it again out of boredom anf curiosity. The previous one's buried somewhere in the August 2004 archives. Oh, and I forgot to put in the link to the blog up there. Sorry about that.

Anyway, the results are...

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
The test can be taken here.

Basically the same, but a bit less even. Avoidant went from high to very high, and Schizotypal went from high down to moderate. All the rest were pretty much constant.

Close-Knittedness, Or Lack Of It

I slept on the sofa last night. My little brother's sick, so I decided to give up my own bed so my mom could sleep nearby, since I share the room with said little brother. I could have slept beside my dad and my littler brother on the double bed, but I chose not to. I would rather not share beds if I could.

I don't really feel that close to my own family. Which is rather sad. That's why I said (or wrote) I wanted to have closer ties with my family, on the paper plate called the "wheel of life". I've always wondered what would happen in a test of loyalty... I sacrificed a nice soft bed for the welfare of my little brother. It makes me think, how much would I be willing to sacrifice just for family?

Clearance And Other Assortments

I cannot work on the computer with someone looking. Well, at least not my parents or siblings, anyway. I especially cannot blog in those conditions.

I am not done getting cleared yet. There are lots of people who haven't been cleared either, but I have lots to finish. STR, 2 lab tech's, property (all of them), health, filipino, batch adviser, and the registrar (prerequisite: everything else). I still have issues with submission of stuff. Must fix that now, before I get to college.

I am bloghopping like mad. Except I've run out of interesting blogs to hop to. Must find more...

The pre-enlistment site's down until after April 6 while they're processing stuff. I want to get that done with early, to avoid the rush. I'm doing it right when they come back online.

This bloggie seems to have gotten a little traffic lately... just a bit.

End...

Mass File Cleanup

I open our computer, only to find out that drive C: ran out of free space. Only about a single megabyte left. It seems I must start clening up the unused files there. Well, actually, I already started. I went through the main directory of drive C: and deleted a few folders the unused/uninstalled programs left over. Just doing that, I managed to free up about two gigabytes already. Still, I'm going to scour the entire hard disk. I want to free up as much space as I can.

Off To College Soon

My table here at home was a complete mess just a few ours ago, so I decided to do a bit of cleaning. I went through most of the sections, discarding some stuff, rearranging others. Sometimes I would uncover some pretty interesting stuff, like the Freshman Orientation Program folder from first year (I remember wondering how the heck I still had that in there), handouts of short stories from English last year(?), and other stuff.

I happened to find a (stained) copy of the rap our section did for the Humanities week. It made me realize that sometimes, things that would look like something to discard have memories loked inside them. Memories that would be long forgotten, had the thing not triggered the recall. I remember going back to the time when we were still practicing, to the time we were already performing in the front lobby. I experienced the feeling of accomplishment, as a section, for winning the contest (the rap was for a contest, by the way).

For a relatively long time, I knew that I was already a graduate of Pisay. It's only now that I actually believed it. My heart finally agreed with my head. The time has come. I'm going off to college now. Truth will not meet as a section anymore, except maybe at reunions and stuff. Batch 05 will no longer be gathering at Pisay (same exception). We're heading in separate directions now, like it or not. Doesn't mean I won't be their friend anymore, though. Right?

Grad Ball

I'll be honest with you. I'm not quite as good with factual narratives as I am with expression of emotions.

The grad ball, also known as the last known officially planned formal batch event, was on March 31, one day after graduation. Registration started at 5:30. I don't remember when I got there, but it's surely some time past 6.

It all started with dinner. Some people seemed to get only desserts for dinner (either that, or they went back eventually). My only notion is that the strawberries are mine.

The batch documentary was shown after dinner. Basically, everyone was asked to describe the batch in one word, then describe leaving in one syllable. I'm guessing some people went all sentimental again. How would you feel if it finally hit you that you're not going to be together as a batch for much longer?

There wasn't much time for the dances. The other people were complaining that it was too short. I didn't really mind. All I did at that time was wandering around, mingling with some people sometimes. Up until 1 in the morning when it all ended.

I'll be honest with you. This factual (maybe slightly opinionated) narrative is all I'm willing to give. I would rather not disclose to the public what was going on inside my head. You can ask, if you really want to know, but don't be so certain I'm willing to tell.