Second Soliloquy
A journey into the mindscape...
Fear is the mind-killer
Well, the first week of college has just passed. And I can already tell I'm not exerting enough effort. I know what I'm talking about. So don't talk to me about being negative or letting it pass or whatever else. I seriously need to work harder this time. And no, it's not okay. Not yet, anyway.Things are getting scary. But instead of acknowledging this fear, I've been denying its existence, calling it 'determination' or something else. And that's bad. Because I am afraid. Afraid that I won't be able to exert myself enough to succeed. Or worse, that even my best effort won't be enough.
*sigh*
